It's been, well, forever since I updated this blog. Wish people just updated thier blogs right? What a change in the Coon household! We are all in school. Yes you heard right ALL of us. We wanted it and asked God to provide a way and he has a thousand times over. Before we need it, it has been provided.
My ingrown insecurities about not having enough seemed to have disappeared. Like what?? Yes, can you even believe it? ME. I realized and it became true in my heart that no matter what I had it never seemed like we would be provided for. Where was my TRUST?? I had no idea. Does God not call us to TRUST in him?? He says it over and over and over. Do not be afraid!! Do not be afraid. But there I was afraid. Afraid of not having enough. And I'm talking basic necessities folks. I was REALLY afraid that we wouldn't have enough. That my children would be hungry and we wouldn't be able to provide--at all. Horror filled thoughts would consume me as I thought about it and then I would go to sleep----and you guessed it. Have nightmares. I would wake up in sweats and carry this through my day and through my actions. Wouldn't want to have people over because all the food might be gone and we wouldn't have anything for the rest of the week or month or year. It was ridiculous and silly but it was where my trust was. It was in me. Not with God. Like God,I know what's up here,and I'm just making sure that we have enough. Is that sooooo bad ?I came to the realization that yes, it was soooo bad. I woke up one day and God had changed my heart. Really and truly God changed my heart through prayer and more prayer and in His time He granted me peace. But he had to stretch me first. God has given all to us. ALL He has already provided.
Matthew 6:26 says 'Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?"
I had to trust completely and we have not gone without. We were blessed with so much that we could not fit everything, We were overflowing at the seams with gifts from God, sent through gracious angels that decided to Trust in what He was telling them. Much like our home and the things that reside here, hearts are the same. Overflowing hearts will flow into others if we just TRUST that God will lead us and provide whatever is necessary to do His will for His Glory.
The little ones know they have the supplies they need to be successful in their mission and they TRUST they will be provided for if they need anything else. I learn so much from them.. It's amazing how God uses our children to show us how to do it right sometimes.
