Time...it has been ticking away...tick, tock, tick, tock. Much more quickly that I ever imagined it would. If I've learned something in my lifetime, it is that time is that one, single thing that you don't get back. You can't buy time, there aren't do overs, go backs, extensions on the hour, even though everything around us tells us that we can have it. We can have it all right? No, not even close. We get one shot with our time and I'd like to say I've used my time away from this family blog of mine ubber wisely, but the truth is, I haven't. Once an outlet to put down my deepest thoughts while in the "season" of little ones, I now realize they aren't so little anymore. To be honest, my memory is slowly fading, so much like the snow on Easter Sunday in Alaska. What will we remember 15 years from now?
Then they will ask. My children and their children. Will we remember it all? Will we remember those pivitol moments in their lives? What was close to my heart during the multiple moves, during the great times and the growing times, during the times where my heart soared because they were learning so well how to do this life? And do this life well? What will keep on? I can only pray that they know how much they are David and I's biggest love other than our relationship with God and each other. What will I leave them with? I don't want them to wonder.
I'm writing this as the fall air waifs through our 4th story apartment and my high school daughter plays a beautiful song she wrote on the piano....the beautiful music of life. Oh! How I love this....this thing that is right now. Lord, help me not forget, still live in the present and look forward to the future you have for us all.